Reprograming our Hearts & Heads
I am finally dating someone, someone with serious potential at a future and someone I absolutely adore. “B” is amazing in so many ways but I have to really work at not defaulting to my old programming.
The EX almost never wanted sex. We never did it during the day, my pleasure was never priority, he wanted me to be quiet, and numerous other little oddities. I use to want it all the time but I had to pled for it, beg, cry, even barter for sex so I became conditioned or "programmed" to not expect it.
“B” said; make noise, scream, talk dirty to me, tell me what you want me to do, let me know I am pleasuring you! He was so sincere and serious it made me smile and want to cum for him even more. He has an insatiable appetite. In less than a 24 hour time frame we can have sex and not just run of the mill sex but mind blowing really good sex three or four times. (Which I love, but I have to get use to the "update.")
It is time to get rid of the old programming, purify the heart and accept new data.
Posted by Calliope Jones